Honestly speaking: I feel like the biggest fucktard on Earth when she said I made her lose some of her friends and when she told me to preach my bullshit to someone else. It was like a thousand bullets coming at me at one go. It's time I let her go because after all that she said, I can't possibly put her through the same ordeal of being together with me. It hurts like crazy now but I'm glad she said everything that she did from hating me to warning me not to contact her 'cause if it makes her feel better to get it out of her system and move on, I'll know my limits and stay out.