Sunday, June 28, 2009

Made my mistakes, let you down

Viewing jake ashley's (http://onthradio.blogspot.com/) made me miss theawesomestshit so much. The only reason why i enjoy sharishimmen.lj so much is because... actually no paticular reason. Maybe it's because there's the Friend's Page feature & it's really easy to change blog titles and all that jazz.

The holidays weren't productive at all. By far, only completed social studies SBQ questions minus the mothercowballs project -middle finger, Chemistry paper, but left out 3 qns(!?), Bio paper, left out 1qns, Math (7mothercowballspages) algebra worksheet but still have some problem solving rubbish & ENGLISH is so far the only homework which i completed. (Come on, it's english. -.- )

Sherry hamdam has so kindly offered her services to me for Math Algebra. Thank god- not using his name in vain for such people like Sherry :D God bless her. I friggin' gave her the password to sharishimmen.lj because i was lazy to explain to her english homework, heh what a bum... I know :)

The H1N1 cases has gone up but no, goverment still refuses to rule out the order of closing down the schools. Like come on, if you're such a people goverment, shouldn't you have thought about how not closing down the school would have an effect like MORE STUDENTS COMING IN CONTACT AFTER THE HOLIDAYS= MORE PRONE OF GETTING INFECTED?! What, 1 week of having 'em quarantined would help? No, doesn't help alright. Actually, i'm just bullshitting cause i've got nothing better to say.

1month of holidays has successfully rot my not very huge brain. Even when Aj called me earlier on, i was like "huh what who are you" even after she repeated 3 times she's aj, ah well...

Had a great time with Shannen @ jake's place on Wednesday. Jake did lunch while shannen & i were physically fighting. Had an awesome prank call with Nicole Ashley. We took lots of pictures & vidoes. My fav was us imitating Guns N Roses & Jason mraz. Had a bloody english lesson with shannen on the word "Decision" fucking.... annoying, seriouzzzzz.

Oh yes, merald fucking scolded like noone's fucking business last night. And suay suay, bumped into her at the new vending machine today, bummer.

Now there's this huge buzz about M. Jack's death. Woh, he changed the music industry man. But at the same time, things doesn't look too good now with all the stupid arguements. And fuck, i feel so pissed with myself cause i keep losing my kepala. A passing sarcastic remark could very well just mean a start of another arguement. There's no point in saying 'I love you b' when you don't mean it. You don't even show an ounce of your 'i love you's. 19 hours 19 hours. But i guess now it's forever & ever amen.

Hi b, i'm sorry for the fuckery we went through in the past 20hours. I really don't know what else to say anymore. I guess both of us can't accept the fuckery we're being put through right now. School's starting soon and for sure we're going to drift apart but that doesn't mean i don't give a shit about you. I'm sure we will be able to work this out soon.. so yeah anyway, i love you bulldozer. Remember to brush your hair tonight asswipe. (:

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only oneI let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Why can't you be straight up with honesty

Haha, i 'm shocked to know that there are still people here, though my tag board is kindda dead.
Haha, faithful readers of theawesomestshit, salute you people.
So yea.. it's the new year. I don't really like how my year's going right now. Everything's still as shitty as ever. I am amazed at how fast i am able to screw up this year. I'm just glad that i've not been lagging behind in my school work. I don't know why do i always find myself in this sort of situations.

The past weeks have been really hectic. Trainings, school work, church, family.. the list just goes on man. My social life's dead now. I've been neglecting alot of stuff. I've been ignoring alot of people in school. Honestly, the person i used to call bestfr is nothing but an hell sent arsehole. I read my old posts from last year. Nov holiday posts are what hit me hard. Amazing how i used to be so close to shanth, calyssa & etc. And amazing how i used to be so in love with heath/ j.

Never thought anything could come between my friendship with 'em till one faithful day, simone just had to do something do my msn conversation with her which jeopardised everything. I don't blame her cause everything that happens is god's will and noone can change that. Instead, i shall thank her cause after my friendship with 'em came to a bitter end, i realised there's more to life than just hanging out with seniors & having people being envious of you for being friends with seniors.

I'm a senior now. And i 'm not friends with any juniors except for those who are in track. I'd talk to 'em but only Hi Bye cause it's damn cliched how juniors thinks that they're all that when seniors talk to 'em. There's a tendency that there might be some jealousy rage between two juniors when you're friends with 'em and i do not wish to be part of that kind of shit after what happened couple weeks back.

I guess what im going through is just a phase. I'm sure i'll get out of this soon, hopefully.

I fell yesterday during training & my right leg is hurting real badly at the wounded area. I think my leg's pretty much cacat right now. I need to go for a haircut tmr and i'll be heading down to s.a.m tmr alone cause all the arsewipe friends of mine bailed out on me : ( Last minute somemore! tsk

I decided not to talk to some arsewipe person anymore. I feel disgusted for having such a friend like her. Been giving her cold replies and all that jazz. And she actually thought i was smiling at her whne i saw my other friends with her yesterday after training, yucks don't be so disgusting please.