Drown your fears w me,

My tears ran down like razorblades
and no,i am not th one t blame.

Im feeling really really emoted right now,but wdever.

We had science for four frigging periods today!!To make things worst it was right after recess.Can you fcking imagine four periods of science?!!!!!
But it was pretty awesome cos I managed to understood what she was going through.I am starting to love sitting infront when it comes to our exam sitting positions.

History paper's on friday.I hope all the exam papers will pass by soon.I already have that annoying feeling i will not be able to do well for Science and i am pretty disturbed by it.The facts won't stay in my head.I wish i had Petx's brain which is really good in picture memory and she could remember every theory,word by word,no kidding.Math has been really fruitful,i love sitting infront for Math cause then only will i be able to listen like all ears sort of thing.Literature is really scaring the shitx out of me given the fact that i do not understand 'My Bird' at all!Mdm Yu's always going off point.I hope i pass Geog this time round.

Alot has happened in the past few days.Sometimes,i really wonder why must God allow such thing happen for no reason at all,sigh.
#01.Lunch and quality time w Rebecca,Cally and Catherine(muffin) on Thursday(24/4)
#02.Lunch and awesome time w Cally,Shanth,Shannen,Sarah and Simone on Friday(25/4)
#03.Nature time and alot shittyx things on Saturday(26/4)
#04.HAHA,the bombxx,mugging session w Muffin,Shanth and simone @ my place.Damn nonsense,ended up only Muffin and I studied cos th other two was playing in th pool.McFlurry and walking across th huge huge fields w muffin on Sun(27/4)

We had assembly yesterday.It was pretty alrite.We watched local films by raw talents,It was really awesome.I love all the videos.I especially enjoyed the 3rd film.It is a music video which was make into a short film.Really really heartxbreaking and warmingx.

I wanna get away frm this place as soon as possible.I really do suck at expressing my feelings cos people always get them mixed up whenever i try expressing myself.I suck at making people happy.I want to be able to comprehend such simple feelings but,every time i do,everything gets stuck in the traffic jam.It's ironic how i told people not to let negativity,bitches and everything that is happening affect them but somehow,i can never apply that for myself(Ironic much?)

#01.Feelings are unabled to be comprehend
#02.Studies are getting slack at th rate i am going.
#03.Learning the chords for the list of songs Dianah gave me is getting unproductive and IJ Fiesta is less than a month away.
#04.Pretty much evrything's suck-ish now.

I am bewildered by the term 'being in love'.I wish there is some communist party againts love.I do not know why,but it seems that whenever you think you have got something going on for you,it starts t fall apart.I am being kept awake at night just thinking about the pain evryone of us has to embrace in different stages of life.I hoped and wished that you are right here nxt t me,star gazing in th park just like how i said i will take you there.Loving someone is really a pain.I wish i can make you happy,i do not ever wish to see you down and out.At night,thinking about just pains th heart.It's something i have really tried to forget but,everything isn't going as planned.Being kept awake by love at night,if you're lucky,you will fall into a deep slumber by the cool air conditioning,if you're not,you will be kept awake the whole night,just you +th pain+thoughts of her.I do not know what you're thinking of,you're not avoiding me,we are still close,but it's weird,are you just gonna keep me hanging?

Everything's taking its toll now.My depriving nights has taken its toll especially on the people around me.I do not kwn why,but i am blowing up at almost evryone.I tried controlling everything but,it just seem to blow up,the harder i try,the worst it gets.I hate what i am feeling right now.I am really feeling numbed now.I can't feel a single ounce of any positive feelings.If this is gonna take a toll on my study,i won't be suprise.


The last song ever.
I wish my life was this song
'cause songs they never die
I could write for years and years
And never have to cry I'd show you how I feel
With out saying a word
I could rap up both are hearts
I know it sounds absurd

And I saw the tears on your face
I shot you down and I slammed the door
But couldn't make a sound
So please stay sweet my dear
Don't hate me now
I can't tell how this last song ends

The way that I feel tonight so down so down I pray I can swim just so I won't drown and the
Waves that crash over me I am gasping for air take my hand so I can breathe as I write this
Last song down

And I saw the tears on your face I shot you down
And I slammed the door but couldn't make a sound
So please stay sweet my dear
Don't hate me now
I can't tell how this last song ends

The broken glass... your moistened skin
Was everything, was everything

And your broken voice... was quivering
You're everything, you're everything

Scream at me make it the best I ever heard
Laugh out loud I know it sounds absurd

Scream at me make it the best I ever heard
You're everything, you're everything

Heart beats slowing pains are growing
Does she love you that's worth knowing?

Heart beats slowing pains are growing
Does she love you that's worth knowing?

You know that i hate this song,cos it was written for you

Caitlin,( :

This post is dedicated t Caitlin ( :
Hey caitlin,don't be so emo-emo laa ok. I do not know what's bothering you but, obstacles are what evry human have t face in their damned lives.Well,you have always been there whenever i need someone t talk t and vent it all out on,so yea, now,it's my turn t return u th favour,so yea,if you need anyone t talk t and someone t listen,im right here honey.
I do not wna see my accident prone netballer sexy voice be uhhhh,unhappy?
Haha,love you loads caring bbbyxx.

#01.iie lurbx eu worxx.
#02.don't be so emo.
#03.Caitlin is so hotxx and kewlxx worxx.(see,it is in your fav colour!Orange!)

Mama,we are all going t hell,

Poetry Slamx boredom w Skittles( :

Haha, ok, wth,i am on th phone w Shan and Shannen,Haha,nice seniors( : see im such a nice junior,Haha.

Will update on life some other time,i am too hooked up on th convo ,heehee.

#01.Exams are here!

#02.Caitlin is so hotxx and kewlxx,( :

#03.There is school 7hours!:O

I feel you all around

Cute stuff,chilli padi,I love Deanne Tan Su-Ling

Today was another typical Saturday. But today was Theatre night. So yeaph,we went to the opening of The Golden Years.So had to wear as usual formal clothing.Damn sian,every weekend have to wear formal. It was this french school near newton.Reached there at 5 plus to meet the producer and director, Gwendolyn Tan,such a fabulous lady,really.Had waffles at waffles town down the road before the concert,super yummy.

So the play was all about these three good friends in the old folks home.Ah Hock,MuthuSami S/O Samisami smthng and Zul.It was basically about how typical the old folks life 's like aft their children dumped them in the home.So,Ah Hock's son who is a young business man that ran into kar-ching problem and he needed money.So Ah hock wanted to raise funds for him.Zul,a famous singer back in his younger days,plan that they shld set up a concert and sell tickets.So,Zul has this gay manager that is super funny that help them in th venue and all those stuff.They sold evry tix and they got the money,but unknowing to the people at the old folk's home,Zul is sick,but he still spent his energy on the concert and when the concert was over,he died doing what he loved the most,it was damn sad.

What i really love about this play is that it is acted out by young and raw talents frm singapore.The had this performance by veteran singers and dancer during the part when ah hock and the rest were suppose to have their concert,it was really awesome.Rommel Aviles who played as Brandon the guy who was Zul's manager is a really awesome guy.I really love their lyrics.There was really alot of originality in it and it really convey the msg that people in their advanced age aren't useless to the community.

Went to meet the cast after the play.Rommel Aviles is a really really really awesome guy so is Sirfan who played Zul. The whole cast except for the performers are young raw talents who really played their role at a awesomely awesome level.Robert Montero was there,he was part of the guest of honour for the opening.Went to talked to the producer/director Gwen,she is a really awesome lady,like no kidding.

Here are some pictures.

Sirfan Sulaimi-Zul and Jace Lee-Ah Hock.>
Rommel Aviles-Brandon and Joanne Tan-Susie
The Cast!


Find Me-Boyce Avenue

So many nights trying to hide it
But now I stay awake just pleading for more
To think this heart was divided
I'm losing sleep cause I can't ignore...

Feeling your touch all around
Peacefully hearing the sound
Of silence around us, so glad we found us this way

Find me, here in your arms
Now I'm wondering where you've always been
Blindly, I came to you
Knowing you'd breathe new life from within

Can't get enough of you

I want to be where you are
In times of need I just want you to stay
I leave a note on your car
When I can't find the right words to say

Hearing your voice all around
The last place we're going is down
I'll blindly follow knowing you're leading the way

Find me, here in your arms
Now I'm wondering where you've always been
Blindly, I came to you
Knowing you'd breathe new life from within

With you in time
There's nothing else
My life stands still
You are the will that makes me strong
Make me strong
If ever alone in this world I know I'll always...

Find me, here in your arms
Now I'm wondering where you've always been
Blindly, I came to you
Knowing you'd breathe new life from within
You sleep, here in my arms
Where the world just shuts down for awhile
Blindly, you came to me
Finding peace and belief in this smile
Find some peace and belief in this smile

Can't get enough of you

#01.Boyce Avenue 's song are damn nice and meaningful

#02.History chpters soon.

#03.I am hungry

#04.It is 1.10am

#06.I miss my bbyx

#07.Caitlin is so hotxx and kewlxx.

No air

still got your face painted on my heart.
Jessica is a very very interesting person,went to talk to her with Marilyn.She is super weird,period.

"eh shari,i think your senior is super scary"-.-

We talked abt fairly well interesting things.There was much laughter in between.

Parents Night yesterday was pretty good.Suprisingly,i did not fall asleep during the talk.Marissa ate 20 over tarts and we were making so many u-turns whenever we see someone.

Went back to the classroom and Pet just ran in and switched off the lights and closed the door.Ass laa Pet.She wanted to scare Sheryl ,Anne and claudia,-.-

Went off to startbucks area outside HOD Room and then,Estelle was running across the brigde to St.Michael's Block when all of the lights are switched off.So,kind me,ran after her to make sure she was alright when she goes up to the Dance Studio.See,Melissa,your son is such a nice person youknow( :

Sheryl's mum sent us to the station.Wanted to grab a bite at Macs but it was packed.So we went to Town Park.Here is an extract frm Anne's blog:

"after we reached town park, put our bags down under a shelter and saw a man running out from the direction of the toilet.and we were comtemplating if we should ran after the man.and while having that thought, we turned to the toilet direction and saw a lady standing outside the toilet looking at the direction where the man was running.so scarrryyy!so we knew something was wrong and so, shari ran to the lady.mel and hafid were running across the road.and when shari cameo utta the toilet, she called me to go in and asked me to talk to the lady.she was standing infront of the mirror fixing her shirt.making her bra and everything.when i stepped in, i didnt know what to say, so i just on the tap and washed my hands.then shari was like,"anne! ask her!"then i went up to the lady and starred at her and she stared at us and she gave us the "ya?" look.and i asked her if she was alright.lady: huh?me: uhm, are you okay?shari: err, did that man that ran out came in here?lady: yes. {and started to do the actions on how the man opened up her shirt}shari and i were shock la.then the lady started crying.so we brought her outta the toilet and i started consoling her while shari kept asking if we should call the police.then she was like,"err, no no. i want to taxi."and she turned away and started crying even more.so shari and i brought her out to the main road and talked to her while walking to the taxi stand.we fond out she was from philipines and is here in singapore for holiday.she lives in a hotel at balestier.:X then we asked if she leaves at hotel 81.:X HAHAHA. i wanted to laugh so badly. :Xbut found out she lives at balestier hotel.lol.yeaah.she was telling us how she got cheated by the guy.she said she was waiting for taxxi outside T.P {town park}and this asshole saw her and saw her wearing such revealing stuff.{yeah, seriously. she was showing her boobs alr. but cant blame her la.}so he went up to her and scolded her for wearing such outfit at such a late hour.{like it's his business -.-}so he said that he'll give her clothes to wear and asked her to follow him.and she stupidly follow -.-he brought her into T.P's toilet and she kept asking him why bring her here and stuffbut he just grabbed her and closed the cubicle door and rip open her shirt and.. yeah.she started screaming and screaming {but we couldnt hear}and the guy did what he wanted to do and ran outta the toilet."

That asshole seriously has no respect for women.

Women are humans too just like men you know.

sheryl and deanne wished they were there,-.- and deanne wants to kick that guy until he goes"My bird!"

Alot has been happening recently.Words and sentences can never be enough to comprehend evrything.All i can say is:

#1.Things are happening way too fast.

#2.Situations are getting more and more stressful now.

#3.Mid-Years are coming and everyone's feeling the pressure.

But on the good side,Thanks Caitlin for hearing me out caring babyx( ;

I finally saw awesomest yesterday and Audrey too.I miss outings with Cally,awesomest and the rest.

#1.Claudia PIE! Stop dragging my guitar laa) :

#2.Cally finally cut off her tail.

#3.Caitlin is so hotxx and kewlxx,she is the best babyx.

#4.Sheryl Phua Yan Qing is so hot and kewl.And I love her like shit loads.

#5.Caitlin's Elmo HAHA Emoticon is scary.

#6.I miss you bbyx.

Take my words,

I NEED YOU BOO,I GOTTA SEE YOU BOO,

SAID THERE ARE HEARTS ALL OVER THE WORLD TONITE<3

Today sucked like crap.I am such a lousy thrower.I kept on getting either no throw or red flag.

Went for lunch with Janet,Elizabeth,Crystal,Swee Ting,Hui Geok,Cynthia,Ms.Mas,Ah Ma,Jacq and Jasmine at PP.We went all the way to pp just to have Food Court laa-.-Haha,lunch was funny.The radio station played How To Save a Life and somehow,i didn't felt like eating anymore and Cynthia,not suprisingly,was singing-.-Crystal was just going on and on about how she loves the fray.

Went to Starbucks with Crystal and Ah Ma to get Ice Mocha.Cynthia took my Whipped Cream and my mocha turned out like crap i tell you.Slept on the way back to ITE Simei,the campus is super big can.Gen was suffering from hunger cos Ah Ma got for her fries frm pp and when she passed it to her,everyone started eating her fries,poor her.(aww)

This idiot woman from i do not know what school ,pushed my junior,dion(sp??) while they were running 800m,she was leading ok!!

There is training tmrw and i still have to meet up with my band to jam for alil while before my training starts,my lunch 45mins is gone.There is still english report which i have yet to start.I bet i will be on Ms.Mucek's blacklisted-list.I miss my lunch dates with people whom i have been really distanced with recently.I do not know what has gotten into me but i have been feeling really awkward around the people i am usually close with.It's just feels like as thou all of us are on different chapters of life.

I feel so pissed off and lousy,Thanks Caitlin for hearing me out( :iie lurbx eu worhxx

I do not know if you know this but,i have been really thinking about all those time when we could talk for hours without getting bored and have so much to say to each other after school or anything.I miss all those quarrels with you on what's hot and what is not and all those stupid retarded jokes we told each other and fowarding each other msges and telling each other it's cheesy.I miss blaming each other for the stupidest thing.I miss having your name on top of my msg inbox and outbox.I miss talking it out with you whenever life gets on my nerves.I miss having you there to hear me out.I miss getting lectured from you over the stupidest things and getting an earful from you when i do things which are stupid to you but not to me.I miss having laughters which last for days with you over retarded things like how funny when you sound when you are angry.I miss coming up with names for you based on what you say and do.I miss having points system with you and always losing out to you cos i always fall for your nasty dirty tricks.In short,i miss having you around,i will do anything to save this from going to waste,you have made an impression on my life and i do not wna lose you now.

#1.My life is officially screwd.

#2.I do not wna go schl tmrw.

#3.Im gna take off tmrw.

#4.Caitlin is so kewlxx and hotxx( :

#5.I miss you oh so badly) ;

I will do anything just to see you tonite,i need you like how th human race needs air and blood.

Define your words.

SOMETIMES YOU CAN'T MAKE IT ON YOUR OWN,
How true aye?

Today was pretty kewlzxxx day ( Other than th damn rain )
Had Animagine and our grp finished 10 mins earlier!!I love my grp,Haha,kewl people.
Deanne and I were taking retarded pictures with the speech bubbles on our heads,frigging kewl ok.Poetry Slam was self entertaining with my usual khakis again.Haha,My 'new best fwen and faithful follower' Sheryl Shen cried )': aww.Siti Mariam played a mean prank on Mithra,Haa,frigging funny(again,another be there sort of thing) And i made up songs for everysingle person in my group!! See,so kind right,right right!!

Pet and i were supposed to train home together but...i don't know what happened.
So yea, It started t rain heavily,damn scary ok.
So we were so desperate t get t tpy that we asked Ms.Teo when she passing by us if she was feeling kind t give us a lift t Tpy and she said Yes but when she mentioned Ms.Mah and Ms.Tong will be there too,Pet and sheryl didn't wna take th lift so it was left w Me,Marissa,Ms.Mah and Ms.Tong in Ms.teo's car.It smelled like my momma's car yo,Haha.During the ride,it was like Ms.Teo was the th mummy of all four girls ,Haha,pretty funny.

Allcomers this sunday and i only trained on Wednesday,there is some stuff going on in TJC so yea,its taking up training time.God(Im not using his name in Vain) ,i really need some time to train.My daddy gave me some tips for training,ayo,too cheem for me to follow.

#1.Caitlin ankles are so not gonna heal at th rate she is doing things.
#2.Thanks Dulcie for helping me out w the phone themes!!
#3.3 more days!!!!!!!!
#4.iie lurbx eu worxxx(as promised,ahem)