Believe

Ease those cringes on your face. Take a deep, deep breath in. Breath out. Tell yourself everything is going to be okay and all would work out in your favour. Take a leap of faith. Pray for all the things you care for and love. Remember to say thanks for all the blessings you have received and the obstacles you have overcome. Tell yourself never give up on yourself or your dreams. 

Promise yourself you will not let yourself and your aspirations down because I will not give up on you or your dreams. Whatever comes your way, you know I will always be here for you to fall back on. 

I do believe in you. 

20 seconds

“Sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery and I promise you, something great will come of it.”


I was in serious contemplation to do something earlier on and I very well know the consequences that might come out of it if I were to do it, but after attempts to get the 20 seconds of insane courage, I just backed out. Simply because for the past 3 months, nothing much has played out in my favour and I just told myself, "hey you know what Shari, maybe you should just forget about doing something which might put your future at risk and just get on with whatever you were doing before pondering about this."


Talked to a friend about this earlier on in the evening and he said "If you are going to do this now, you will know what would come out of doing this but by not doing so, you are just going to live the rest of your life, thinking of what could have been instead of knowing what could have been. Live with the knowledge of knowing what happened, not regrets" and of course followed by the norms of having a conversation with your close friend's ex boyfriend. Well, pretty obviously I do not want to be living with the regrets of not executing this action and for losing the insane courage to do it but one day, surely I know I'd do it. Maybe it is when I do not give it second thoughts at all and just do it without even stopping for a second to ponder and maybe it 'd happen when I am least expecting myself to do so. Like a moment of folly or in the words of We Bought A Zoo, literally 20 seconds of just embarrassing bravery. 


Perhaps now is not the right time. Or maybe there will never be a right time. Just 20 seconds of me being so damn full of courage, yes. 


and my bad if this post sounds pretty much repetitive 

There is a light that never goes out

This week has probably been one of the most eventful week I will have in a very, very long time. 
I must extend my thanks and apologies to @yanaindreas and @NeonRetroNipz & her mom for troubling them because of the state my health is in. Also to Sashé for constantly responding to my almost stupid medical queries. 
So, so, so grateful for the fact that Yan was there to bring me to the hospital or I promise I could have just died. As usual, me being the stubborn prick that I am, I bullshitted my way out of getting admitted. Hey, come on all those momoks and God knows what else that would be lurking around the wards at night... No thanks. 
I think the most shitty part of how the whole situation is right now was seeing how worried soldiers were when I told them about it but I really do hope that they'd stop worrying because I am Shari Shimmen and nothing gets to me. ;-) 
Despite how 'fantastic' I feel, I refuse to just stay at home and rot. There is nothing for me to do at all besides reading a book... So I have decided to go back for classes and work in the upcoming week + it is also going to be filled with appointments. Omgahh. 
Oh yes, met up with Stacey, Shan and Naqs for a quick round of beer at Harry's last night. Stacey is all grown up from since she left for Canada. It was definitely good seeing the three of them and telling them about the Rachel, tee hee hee. 
Left to meet the girls at Singapore Flyer after for some ice cream. I am telling you readers now, that ice cream outlet is going to be my most visited ice cream parlor from now on wards, ha ha ha... 
It was so good seeing soldiers full attendance last night because it has been long since all of us were present at one time while meeting up. Nothing beats friends like them. Ever. 
The rest of the night is..... beyond indescribable. #honestyhour


Oh yes and at the wee hours of the morning, the cabbie almost banged into another cab. Could have sworn I saw the light. 


x

Hold me down sweet love, I'll carry you home

One of the bestest friend anyone could ever have. Amazing girl 

30th June 2012: An amazing evening for the LGBT community in Singapore + around the region. It was the very first Pink Dot held at night and it attracted a record breaking 15, 000 over people. 

Despite the weather being pretty humid and all that, it was still pretty much a night to remember 'cause I think we are damn lucky to have such a brave group of people stepping up to be the voices of the LGBT community in Singapore. 

Bumped into quite a number of people. It was good, good seeing familiar faces there and even the straight ones! Met Sashé before that to grab *$ and my goodness, it was life saving. Caught up with @cforserious for a bit. It was good, good even though that girl dressed in a way that it seems more appropriate for her to be at one of the lanes in Geylang. #badjoke ya


Headed for dinner after with @lourdecris, @shannnnn, @erasethisgirl, @offtheblue, Vernice(I don't know how to spell her name), Sashé and Sashé's friend, Mel Chia. Had such a fantastic time laughing at someone's middle name but after that, @lourdecris just had to start poking fun at my name. Not cool at all 


It was Bay Beats 2012 after that and in my utmost honest opinion, all the matreps and people in the same radar as them were all dressed so similarly. Excuse me for being blunt but a formal shirt, tailored pants and pointed toes for a gig? You've got to be shitting me, brothers. 


Met Khai and his friends after at Clarke Quay + it was retarded beyond words and I honestly have nothing to say about my time spent from then till 6am. 


Despite my Saturday not going according to how I initially wanted it to, it was nonetheless, a pretty good night + had some good people for company. 


Caught The Amazing Spiderman, had my favourite sugarcane drink + bought a book (Life and Death in Shanghai) with my family on Sunday. Love spending time with them even though they get on my nerves half of the time. With the exception of mom. I love you, mommy. xxx 


x 
Here's to an awesome week for you and I. 

There is a major lack of photos for this post simply because I am too lazy to upload photos from my mobile and these are all taken off Facebook