Sitting on an angry chair

Hmm. Let me begin my post of the week with a little something for Mr/Ms/Dr/Mrs/Mdm LOL.
Whoo, thanks for actually 'pointing out' my grammatical errors and stupidity. Well, in actual fact, 'behind close doors' does exist. Hmm, lets see, It's a television programme which aired on NATIONAL TELEVISION couple months back. Man, i don't even know why im bothered with typing all these out for you. Ah, oh wells, continue tagging my tag board with all your insultations and fancy your mother naming ya LOL. & how i bloody type in my blog posts/whatever you're hitting at is my PASAL, not yours. You want to cari pasal go geylang/tekka/cheena town don't sesat sesat come here , tyvm.

So the week started out pretty alright. Lessons were as boring as usual. Trained home with Becca, Fran and Calyssa. The rest of the evening was such a disappointment.

To San:
Seriously man, i don't know what's your problem. Can't you see im trying real hard to be the best i can be to you? Yes, i admit that i was blowing hot and cold towards you at the beginning, but now when i am trying so fcking hard to put the past behind me, here you are pushing me away. Do you know how much bloody effort i've put in in all that i 've done for you. By totally ditching mah cookies that i baked for you and ditching the daisies that i gave to you is as good as ditching what we have? I don't know what the nonsense more can i say to you now. It's seriously up to you how you want this to turn out man. The choice is up to you, no pressure man.

Bloody hell.

Slow down, this break down's eatin' me alive

Youth Olympic, donkey months ago. (Me, Moron, Mel)(L)

-But i'd rather be here w you

It's been long since i last update. School has been alright for the past few days. Give me some space to blog about about my days starting from Tuesday.

So on tuesday night, i was studying and i needed help on Bio and chem topics so i decided to asked Sam pang. Apparently, she was nice enough to lend her brain for the night. And she is mad cos she studies up till wee hours in the morning!!! Missed school on Wednesday. Back to school on thursday. I love my moron alot for dragging me to the general office along with Sheryl cause i stumbled upon a once-in-a-lifetime thinggy after collecting her stuff. HAHA, moron, if you're reading this, YOU ROCK. While going for EP through the third level bridge, oh my fats, i saw 'hot/panas' man. Hahaha.

Mugged from 8.30 all the way to 5.30 am and i only slept for half an hour before heading to school. Mel, Mariam and Ying en(Sheryl) were worried that i'll fall asleep during lessons cos i was fxking hyper in the morning before assembly.

So friday was basically the slackest day for the week. Science experiment seriously suck-ed to the core. P.E was fantastic cause Moron and I were basically for the first time this year doing our slowest of one round in 2 mins. Hahaha, and we did Medicine ball after that. The whole class were playing silent badminton cos we weren't allow to make too much noise due to the PSLE LC going on next door. Had an really early recess and basically all i did was pass around history notes and laser-mouthing w Moron again(Gahh, how bitchy) AH! I didn't fall asleep at all man.

So got back home quite late and had dinner and had another study marathon with Vicq for 13 hours siol. Amazing but it actually happened with only falling asleep for 45mins while doing math(IT'S MATH,WHAT DO YOU EXPECT) Vicq was uber funny cause she kept asking what time it was and how long more till breakfast. Slept for an hour before watching my Gossip Girl on VideosOnDemand. Could have slept in but i was having a headache and sleeping will only make it worse.

Lyssandra is pissed cos i ditched her today, sorry ah.

Just got off the phone with Sheryl shen ying en. She is damn funny, kept on repeating the same thing about her kaya and curry puff. We were playing make believe,haha. She was damn sad on thursday and friday cos of her kaya, awwww. Cheeeeeeeeer up Ying ennnnnn! : D

Ok, i need to get back to mugging atleast one more chapter of History and i will be done for the night!

And my eyes are screaming for the sight of you. And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through. And I can't hold on to you. So I guess I feel lonely, too.

Lor mee+ Sugar cane juice+ teh c

-Hello my friend, we meet again.
Finally got a tag board after much pestering from Jan and Lyssandra(Unglam 24 year olds)
School so far has been pretty alright. Everyone's talking about mugging,studies and other shit stuff in that era. Everyone in class is feeling the heat from the exam fever.

Went for Shine Jesus shine with an awesome bunch of people. Marissa,Aloy,Cheryl,Sheryl,Leticia,Celestine,Christopher(WHO IS SO NOT HOT.), Abigail,Sarah and Christine!! We had MOS before that. Wah, Marissa and I were freezing our ass off in velocity. Reached Novena pretty early. There was this guy in red from Marissa's church who kept saying Hi to Cheryl and the rest, funny shit. Some Joshua,mosses,dominic(I think) dudes joined us. Sheryl was damn emo man during praise and worship. Cheryl and I were the only happy people, ah. Left early to meet Caitlin. And it was home after that.

It was raining hell last nigt. But the lightnings were awesome. Mariam and I had major laser mouth bitch session today. Thanks alot Moron for laser mouth-ing with me :D Lessons were pretty alright today. I slept while Ms. Au asked everyone to gather at Sheryl Shen's table. Art was hilarious man. Cheesecakes from Hilton and Mooncakes from Raffles are the best! :)

Bus-ed home with Sheryl today. Haha, the bus was friggin' cold. Slept all the way to Sengkang. Took 965 home with this St. Joseph person, and i swear she is damn annoying man. People trying to sleep and she was sleeping too but her head ah, kept going side way. AH, my neighbour from the opposit estate some more.

When you're with me, im free;
Im careless, i believe.

Drown your fears w me,

My tears ran down like razorblades
and no,i am not th one t blame.

Im feeling really really emoted right now,but wdever.

We had science for four frigging periods today!!To make things worst it was right after recess.Can you fcking imagine four periods of science?!!!!!
But it was pretty awesome cos I managed to understood what she was going through.I am starting to love sitting infront when it comes to our exam sitting positions.

History paper's on friday.I hope all the exam papers will pass by soon.I already have that annoying feeling i will not be able to do well for Science and i am pretty disturbed by it.The facts won't stay in my head.I wish i had Petx's brain which is really good in picture memory and she could remember every theory,word by word,no kidding.Math has been really fruitful,i love sitting infront for Math cause then only will i be able to listen like all ears sort of thing.Literature is really scaring the shitx out of me given the fact that i do not understand 'My Bird' at all!Mdm Yu's always going off point.I hope i pass Geog this time round.

Alot has happened in the past few days.Sometimes,i really wonder why must God allow such thing happen for no reason at all,sigh.
#01.Lunch and quality time w Rebecca,Cally and Catherine(muffin) on Thursday(24/4)
#02.Lunch and awesome time w Cally,Shanth,Shannen,Sarah and Simone on Friday(25/4)
#03.Nature time and alot shittyx things on Saturday(26/4)
#04.HAHA,the bombxx,mugging session w Muffin,Shanth and simone @ my place.Damn nonsense,ended up only Muffin and I studied cos th other two was playing in th pool.McFlurry and walking across th huge huge fields w muffin on Sun(27/4)

We had assembly yesterday.It was pretty alrite.We watched local films by raw talents,It was really awesome.I love all the videos.I especially enjoyed the 3rd film.It is a music video which was make into a short film.Really really heartxbreaking and warmingx.

I wanna get away frm this place as soon as possible.I really do suck at expressing my feelings cos people always get them mixed up whenever i try expressing myself.I suck at making people happy.I want to be able to comprehend such simple feelings but,every time i do,everything gets stuck in the traffic jam.It's ironic how i told people not to let negativity,bitches and everything that is happening affect them but somehow,i can never apply that for myself(Ironic much?)

#01.Feelings are unabled to be comprehend
#02.Studies are getting slack at th rate i am going.
#03.Learning the chords for the list of songs Dianah gave me is getting unproductive and IJ Fiesta is less than a month away.
#04.Pretty much evrything's suck-ish now.

I am bewildered by the term 'being in love'.I wish there is some communist party againts love.I do not know why,but it seems that whenever you think you have got something going on for you,it starts t fall apart.I am being kept awake at night just thinking about the pain evryone of us has to embrace in different stages of life.I hoped and wished that you are right here nxt t me,star gazing in th park just like how i said i will take you there.Loving someone is really a pain.I wish i can make you happy,i do not ever wish to see you down and out.At night,thinking about just pains th heart.It's something i have really tried to forget but,everything isn't going as planned.Being kept awake by love at night,if you're lucky,you will fall into a deep slumber by the cool air conditioning,if you're not,you will be kept awake the whole night,just you +th pain+thoughts of her.I do not know what you're thinking of,you're not avoiding me,we are still close,but it's weird,are you just gonna keep me hanging?

Everything's taking its toll now.My depriving nights has taken its toll especially on the people around me.I do not kwn why,but i am blowing up at almost evryone.I tried controlling everything but,it just seem to blow up,the harder i try,the worst it gets.I hate what i am feeling right now.I am really feeling numbed now.I can't feel a single ounce of any positive feelings.If this is gonna take a toll on my study,i won't be suprise.


The last song ever.
I wish my life was this song
'cause songs they never die
I could write for years and years
And never have to cry I'd show you how I feel
With out saying a word
I could rap up both are hearts
I know it sounds absurd

And I saw the tears on your face
I shot you down and I slammed the door
But couldn't make a sound
So please stay sweet my dear
Don't hate me now
I can't tell how this last song ends

The way that I feel tonight so down so down I pray I can swim just so I won't drown and the
Waves that crash over me I am gasping for air take my hand so I can breathe as I write this
Last song down

And I saw the tears on your face I shot you down
And I slammed the door but couldn't make a sound
So please stay sweet my dear
Don't hate me now
I can't tell how this last song ends

The broken glass... your moistened skin
Was everything, was everything

And your broken voice... was quivering
You're everything, you're everything

Scream at me make it the best I ever heard
Laugh out loud I know it sounds absurd

Scream at me make it the best I ever heard
You're everything, you're everything

Heart beats slowing pains are growing
Does she love you that's worth knowing?

Heart beats slowing pains are growing
Does she love you that's worth knowing?

You know that i hate this song,cos it was written for you

Caitlin,( :

This post is dedicated t Caitlin ( :
Hey caitlin,don't be so emo-emo laa ok. I do not know what's bothering you but, obstacles are what evry human have t face in their damned lives.Well,you have always been there whenever i need someone t talk t and vent it all out on,so yea, now,it's my turn t return u th favour,so yea,if you need anyone t talk t and someone t listen,im right here honey.
I do not wna see my accident prone netballer sexy voice be uhhhh,unhappy?
Haha,love you loads caring bbbyxx.

#01.iie lurbx eu worxx.
#02.don't be so emo.
#03.Caitlin is so hotxx and kewlxx worxx.(see,it is in your fav colour!Orange!)