Awakening thoughts

We have been through the craziest things, said the harshest things to each other and more importantly, we loved one another in a way which we could never imagine loving someone else the same way. We both have flaws that'd be the death of us whenever we are together but flaws do not just go away in a matter of days, weeks, months.

We both agreed on working on those issues and we both knew what we were getting into. It will not be a smooth sailing journey because every relationship matures at its own pace, I suppose? Unless the relationship is meant to be in the dumpster then that would be different. Obviously, not ours because if it was, we would not be this miserable over the situation we are in.

People may judge, give their opinions and be critical of our relationship but that does not mean we are 'bad for each other' right? - what does being bad for each other means? Are we going to end up eating each other's toes and fingers....? There are days you want to kill me for the way I am and there are days I wished you would just stop being so.... You but does it really mean we are bad for each other?

I am full of flaws and I have hurt you once too many times before but I have never stopped feeling the way I did since day 1. I cannot make things better within a short period of time and I KNOW WE HAD ALMOST 3 YEARS TO WORK ON THIS but a relationship is a growing process. We cannot possibly compare ours to someone else's and how we roll makes our relationship, our relationship. 

It has been almost 3 years and if running away, isolating ourselves from one another is the key solution to this, it would have succeeded the first time it happened. Not only that, if what we shared is meant to be in the pit, the mutual feeling of our love growing stronger and more with every passing day would be non existent.

Alas, if this 'right decision' you are making is truly going to be a decision to satisfy you in the long run then I'd be glad for you. I will not even view it as a decision because you never had to choose in the first place. 

2013

New commitments. Heavier responsibilities. Different perspectives. Changed mindsets.

Thoughtsss

"While I was taking a shower; 

I was washing my face and when my face was closed up to the huge ass mirror, I saw my tear ducts while rubbing my eyes. Immediate memories which flooded my thoughts was that one time I came over to your place so excitedly in the morning, wanting to tell you about how weird my eyes were because I never knew there was a hole at the edge of my eyes.

When I told you about it, you just lied on your bed, gave me the bitchiest look and then laughed so hard. "

Unexpected thoughts greeting me during my Monday shower. Wrote it down here since I do not have my black book here with me in K.L. Meh 

Have a good PH, everyone! 

31st November 2012

Spent the day in a foul mood no thanks to a certain individual whom I would slap the silly out of but I shall not out of respect and love. No kid. It was such a small and beyond stupid reason for that person to lash out and it was the fucking epitome of making a mountain out of a molehill. Fucking disappointment but whatever, feeling so much better after a good nap. 

Looking forward to plans made this coming November + work + school! Another 2 more months and it is 2013..... Lets see, did I manage to cross anything out from my 2012's resolution list? Haha. 

This is slightly late but thanks to everyone who made my birthday a really great one to remember. 

and R.I.P to my late step-father, Al. x

For what is worth

For what is worth:

Nothing is as beautiful as watching the sunlight shine through your hair with your smile plastered across your face.
Nothing sounds as good as hearing you laugh or hearing you sing way-way-way-way off tune.
Nothing is as adorable as you clapping and squealing like a baby seal.
Nothing feels as good as our fingers interlocking at random times.
Nothing would make me feel as comfortable as having your head rest on my shoulder.
Nothing can be compared to nights spent with you, walking, talking, smoking like as if we didn't have a care in the world.

More importantly, nothing makes me feel happy like how you do.