Graduation Night 2011

The crazy hectic week after O-levels has finally ended. Mixed emotions about it because after all the studying, discussions/ planning for Graduation Night(According to Becky: Prom without Boys) and all the rushing to get things done an hour before prom, it has all come to an end; officially our last 'school related event'.

I must say, I had more than just a blast at prom which was held at Marriott Singapore. Nothing much on the prom organized by the school but more of the thrill of seeing my juniors (Secondary 4 girls) and the Secondary 5 girls all dressed up, spending the night as one HUGE IJ Family. Some photos from prom:

Soldiers; My lovely ladies. Loving them forever & always
Look who came to crash#01. The lady who shot her zombie
Janelle! She loves meow meows too :-)
Claudia Yong!
Coolest photo taken during prom :P
Mighty Val's armpit photo :P

Kids at table 41
Meet my Ah Tan, Lynnette Tan Shi Ying :-B
Meet Zhi Ying, Track & Field Captain '10-'11
Meet the prom crasher #02. The girl who loves tea aka. MaroonMonday on Youtube! Catch her this Wednesday, 6pm at the open area outside 313's Marche
Melissa Rodrigues! Miss this girl so much.
Kiana and I with Ms. Champion. The teacher who saw me grow up since I entered the gates of IJ, hahahaha

Jasmine Alisa Lee
Rebecca Rose Morais
Janina Deocareza- Soria
Celestine Josephine Emmanuel
Our very own super star: Roobini Daley!!!!!!
Shirley Kusumo! Secondary 1/5's Chair person & Vice chair person
What's up, the cool kids from table 41 again
Beautiful ladies
Soldiers
2011 sitting partner, sup

CHILLI PADI!!!!! Deanne Tan Su-Ling. Amazing friend :-)

Christine Lee!!!! She's damn noisy, haha.

Next up... Photos from the after party of prom. We all went crazy but hey!!! It was our prom night and man, we had a blast.

Meet the Indians!!!!! Haha, #kidding. Meet Shiv!
I think this is a really cute photo of Celestine and me.


This is about it for prom. All I can say is that IJ is forever a part of me. I've never regretted putting 7001 as my first choice for Secondary School Posting. An IJ experience is priceless. And my girls, they're priceless + precious. I love 'em like how a fat boy loves cake.

xx

16mm

I was honestly planning on writing the night away on this blog but... the lack of sleep for the past month is already taking its toll on me tonight. It's also the end of O-levels for me so I should really just catch up on my sleep now but before that, here are some photos from the past week. Enjoy x

14th November 2011: Lepak~ at Becky's house w my ladies to let loose after a tough month of exams.

Nothing's ever going to replace the places they all hold in my life.

11th November: Managed to catch up with Jerri @ Republic Poly while supporting Shaz for her performance
Random lepak~ night @ Panjang with Diana and Kel. :-)

Lose your clothes & show your scars

Tomorrow is officially the start of all my O-levels written papers. I have so much running through my mind and it pretty much sucks because I feel as though my brain isn't really maximized to its fullest potential. Been doing math like crazy because it's undeniably my weakest subject. I'm determined to pass it, I have to man... Geez after all the effort I've been putting in, I better get at least the minimum pass!!!!!

I thought nothing would ever hurt me again but no, I was wrong. I thought all the hurt and emotional bullshit is all over and done with but... when I stumble upon something by accident, I could feel my heart up my throat and I could feel myself choking. Being someone's biggest regret and mistake is the most terrible thing to be on Earth. Bloody terrible especially when the girl's someone you have had the best times of your life with, hands down.

I felt the most comfortable in my own skin whenever I was with her. Our relationship was crazy. With every single thing that she did, I fell in love with her even more. I wasn't even looking for anyone to date when I met her, that's the best part of it all. It felt like it was fated for us to have had each other around. If I could go back in time, there's only one thing I would change. What happened on that fateful night. Just that night and I swear I'd be the happiest person alive for the rest of my life.

So when does you'll get over it begins?

Love is

"Love is:

Doubting each other, because you know that the other person is there to reassure you.

Fighting, passion needs to be in a relationship, people argue and make up, the fact they make up makes it all worthwhile."

I will be fine

Yesterday and today was one crazy ride of emotions. I had a lot of time to think things over and a lot of time for the words that she said to sink in. It still hurts to a certain degree thinking about what she said and knowing that she's completely over this relationship/ moved on to another dude but I guess what everyone around me have been trying to say is finally starting to take its effect on me.

I won't deny that it'd be hard to see her with that guy but what is done is done. We had our good times and we had our chance at love. Perhaps I wasn't the one for her and I wasn't the one that was able to give her hope but at least for me, this relationship has made me a better person. I'm still trying to be better but hey, that's something good taken out of the relationship. Minus all the petty fighting and shitty misery I put her through, I think it was good while it lasted. She may not see any good in the relationship but I did and that's good enough for now.

Ah fuck, just did something really stupid. I shouldn't have looked at the old activities we shared on Facebook and stuff. Memories are flooding back in my head but I will be fine. I'll get over this, I'm getting there. She may not have anything good to remember me by but I'll always think of her as the girl I met at *$. It's always better to remember someone in the good light than to be bitter about what they did/ say which hurt you right? I don't know but yeah, I'm sticking to that.

All along I thought the closure that I needed was something all sweet and lovely dovey but I realised sometimes it's better when the closure it's more amicable and monotone 'cause it only makes it easier for at least one party to move on. Knowing that she doesn't love me anymore kinda makes it easier to move on though it hurts like hell but hey.... the world's as fucked up as it is (to quote her)

Happy tenth monthsary to you. It doesn't mean anything to you anymore but it still holds memories for me. I wish nothing but the best for you.