I remember how we met. The very first time I laid my eyes on you. I remember thinking how you would never be mine. You are someone who is genuinely a nice person. A friend that everyone wishes to have. You were there when the going got tough last year. I remember plucking up the courage to tell you that I have taken the fancy on you. Oh how my stomach churned and my head pounded as I typed that text, sent it out to you and anxiously waiting for a reply from you all in the presence of my friends and acting calm and collected.
I remember how things got serious for us. All the texting, the late nights spent together, nights we we slept together, days we enjoyed ourselves throughly with our favourite people... and of course the arguments we had and not forgetting the promises we made. Promises which I broke.
With all honesty, the way I spent my night this weekend was to just have fun with our favourite people and their friends and to let off some steam because I'm seriously damn stressed up with school and exams. Nothing more, nothing less. I never intended to hurt you. If I could, I would revert back time and changed my decision but I can't. Now, it is all too late.
I've lost you. I've lost my whole world. You have always been a part of the drive I have in me to do well for school this year. For the sake of our future we imagined having together. All the sides you saw of me was the most anyone has seen of me being outside family besides my close friends. I never thought we'd be that comfortable with each other.
We could have had it all. All the hopes and dreams we had of each other. All gone with this stupid mistake I made. These past months has honestly been the best times of my life. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for giving me the chance to love you. I'm sorry for disappointing you and cutting you like a knife. Yeah, you will find someone who deserves you. Someone who said they'll change for the better and keep to their words.
You're a gem and I'll never forget you in this lifetime I'm living
x
