Honestly speaking: I feel like the biggest fucktard on Earth when she said I made her lose some of her friends and when she told me to preach my bullshit to someone else. It was like a thousand bullets coming at me at one go. It's time I let her go because after all that she said, I can't possibly put her through the same ordeal of being together with me. It hurts like crazy now but I'm glad she said everything that she did from hating me to warning me not to contact her 'cause if it makes her feel better to get it out of her system and move on, I'll know my limits and stay out.

May all your dreaming fill the empty sky

I keep making mistakes and I keep falling. I can't keep up with my mistakes neither could she do so. Things aren't going to be easy from now on wards but I'll get through with whatever I have left of you and I. Be it the only polaroid I have of you or living in the facade of our forever and always.

It'll always be my dream to do whatever we set out to do. Call me foolish but for the first time in my life, she was the only girl who made me want to be a better person.

Forever and always

As much as I feel that there isn't any hope for us anymore, I can't and I won't give up because this love has kept me going for the past year. It may not mean anything to you anymore and it may be pointless and just utter bullshit whatever I say to you but this heart, it beats for only you.

I'm not going to pester you or wallow myself in self pity. I believe our love is still stronger than ever to go through the harshest storm. I didn't walk my talk much the previous time you gave me a chance but trust me, I'm running my talk. I am changing. Just give me time to blossom in your eyes if you may.

When I said forever and always, I meant forever and always + a day.

Now and then

You light up my world with the fire of your love which burns so bright

Now the fire is slowly diminishing and the place where our love used to house is starting to get darker and darker as I'm begging you not to put out the light

'Cause I'd rather just be alone if I know that I can't have you