Closing this chapter

I'm quite pissed off with blogger because my post which was reverted back into drafts was deleted. Like the whole entire content of my damned post. A post which I poured my heart out into. Balls and I've been sitting here for the past 2 hours trying to rewrite the post with the exact same emotions that I had writing that at 2 in the morning but.... I didn't manage to deliver my words the way it is suppose to be like last night/ this morning. 

As shitty as I feel because I wanted so badly to re-publish that post for that particular someone to be able to READ what's going through my mind, I guess it's a sign to show me that as shitty and miserable I was feeling last night, I guess it doesn't really matter all that much to me now. 

It greatly annoys me when someone is able to text/ WhatsApp/ tweet to others but not reply me. Especially when someone says that she loves me. Ignoring me and degrading me is only going to piss me off even more and I will just end up bugging you even more. 

Whatever it is, I guess this break up is fair and square because you've finally got what you wanted which is me leaving you alone for good and I got what I deserve which is this heartache for having so much faith. As much as I'll always love you no matter what happens, it's time I put myself before you because nothing's going to come out of being sad over this. 

I'm sorry if you feel offended by this post. I know you've tried your best and I do believe you when you told me about your love for me but this is how I honestly feel and I hope you're able to respect it by not lashing out on me for speaking about how I feel.